i see you...
every fucking night...
i can't sleep anymore because you invade every dream. my mind constantly shows vivid flashbacks of you and i. i keep seeing you, feeling you, smelling you, hearing you, tasting you... but ur not here. i miss the way you would smile at me after going at it over and over again, the way you kissed me after not seeing me all day.
how is it that we go from talking all day everyday to 1 text every 2 days?
now the situation is so fucked up, im tryna find reasons to see u, but even them valid reasons dont matter. tryna find any reason to text you (like 2 new blogs today)... but it ain't shit to say no more.
my whole mind has been you. every thought. i wonder who u fallin asleep on the phone wit now... if u think about me... just wats goin on in ur head.
no answer tho.
just empty ass texts with no explanation.
aight den coo. fuck it. ima just go back to dating these hoes and fuckin who i want.
i can't. every woman i meet aint u. i try to find anything in her to remind me of you... i can't find it so its on to the next one...
and the next one...
and im still searching.
so now its to the point that im getting pissed off at myself. tryna retrace my steps and tryna find the signs and i can't see it. so now im lookin hella dumb tryna show u that i want you... that i been wantin u.
i think about the nights that we spent together and how close we held each other. i still laugh about the night i said i love u and then ran. i only laugh cuz it's like "well nigga where was u goin?" little did i know, you loved me too.
i unknowingly fucked up and wish i woulda saw it coming... now im in this deep hole. like u ask me things and i know ur upset about something i said and u choose not to tell me what it is.
lack of communication is the leading killer in lesbian relationships (title or no title)
but i cant blame you. its on me and i've accepted that.
i just want my Apollonia back.
- Yungin ((.f.l.h.))
ps: u niggas foolish if u think her name is really apollonia.
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