.patience is a virtue.

so much i wish i never said... i never wanted u to leave. things become harder and harder the longer we are apart. it took everything in me not to drop down to my knees and beg you to stay. i want you so bad, even though ur not here, i still see you... i can feel ur presence. i just wish you knew that i was different. i wish you could understand that after 2 years of chasing you, im not going to do u like the others... but then again i understand why you wont come back... you've heard that from the last 2 women u were with.

i been fighting with myself about you for weeks... hell i've been fighting with the world... telling them how it doesn't matter what happens, im gonna love you anyway... telling them how ima stick it out and make it work even though you don't want a relationship...

you don't want a relationship...

but you do.

u told me everyone could see that you wanted to be with me...

i told u everyone could see that i wanted you...

but neither of us saw it in each other.

i always swore after Crystal, i would never drop another tear over a female again. but there i was... standing in that parking lot with u fighting back tears... looking down at the ground because i didn't wanna look up and see the image i still hold in my head of u crying all because of me... but i couldn't help it. the tears fell and i knew i had lost u.

kinda felt like a shot to my chest.

felt like i lost my heart.

felt like somebody took a piece of me.

now im wakin up in the middle of the night lookin at my phone hoping i've missed a call so i can call u back or hoping u sent me a text so i can text u back... but its nothing.

u jz keep saying u need time and im tryna give u that but i can't take dis shit no more. im tryna deal wit it the best way that i know how. tryna stay occupied... but ain't nothin workin. i think i came down with a case of u.

or maybe im so lost in the fact that im so in love with you that im not thinking straight.

so ima sit here...

&&ima wait.

ima do everything i need to jz to prove that i love you and you're the one for me.


bank on dat shawty.



- Yungin ((.f.l.h.))