.m.i.a.

since u been away
love's been m.i.a

and I'm missing you so bad I wanna put you on the side of a milk carton

This is way more than I could bargain for
realizing that I closed a door
thinking it would remain open
hoping that for once I could handle things like these other niggas do
but you not these other chicks
and i took a long look in the mirror and realized im not them other niggas boo

I'm one of the few good guys still standin
I'm into sweet talkin, romancin & slow dancin
Sendin flowers just cuz its Thursday
writing you poetry to let you know I want you in the worst way

I know I hurt you and that was never in my plans
Havin you back in my life just didn't happen by chance
I call you my blessing, 

but I'm still practicing my steps in case this is our last dance

Craving for a hand touch or a forehead kiss
Wishing I could read your mind through the touch of your lips
My brain is so scattered
tryna figure things out
tryna show you that she never mattered
she was just a slip of the tongue
that took me down in more ways than one
and even while she was having her fun

i was thinking of you

thinking of how what I was doing was wrong
thinking of how with you is where I shoulda been all along
watching you walk away was the hardest thing I've ever dealt with
the look in your eyes as the tears flowed
my heart slowed
i felt like my heart was walking away
praying to God before I knocked out that when I woke up things would be okay
but you were gone 
and now you're back and so scared to give me your heart
the fact that you can't trust me tears me apart

i feel like a murderer

i feel like I made you afraid to trust
and she made you think that every chick that says "its love" means "its lust"
but for me its love
you got this hold on my heart
and i shoulda known from the start
that this thing called "us"
would get me addicted quick to where I can't get enough

YOU are the epitome of what a woman is
YOU are the truth
YOU are my sanity, my clarity
YOU are the Claire to my Cliff
YOU are that feeling when the bassline to my favorite song hits
YOU are the reason I smile, the reason I look forward to sending a good morning text
YOU are the woman of my dreams
YOU make me want to be called Charlene



but YOU are M.I.A.




- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))