.the way my gemini is set up.

The Bible says when u find a wife you find a good thing

and thats all im lookin for

but somehow I'm torn

torn between the two lives that I live

actin like i don't have this big ol heart to give

tryna decide between Claire and Malyah

Gettin wit the strippers and know I don't wanna wife ha

but why not?

she hustle the same industry as me

she understand when I gotta promote in these streets,

talk to these hoes and smile in they face

& she know at the end of the day she can't be replaced

but I can't deal with the lies of the lifestyle

bitches don't care if you go the extra mile

cuz some other nigga is her sponsor anyway

he walk in the club throwin racks on the stage

she rubbin on him tellin him things she tell me

...hell naw g

u can miss me wit the bullshit

last bitch that pulled it almost caught a full clip

the smile of a child will change ya heart...

im into playin it smart

i like them girls that view marriage as a business

"Miss Independent" 

but she knows her place when it comes to us

we may have our arguments about these hoes tryna fuck

but when I kiss her she knows the truth

she knows the difference between Charlene and that "Yung Nigga" Yung Cru

understander of my American Dream

that Huxtable livin

yeah that was a TV show, but my dad was missin

Cliff was the perfect man with the perfect wife

and that's all I'm tryna have in my life.

...these strippers tho....

- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

.m.i.a.

since u been away
love's been m.i.a

and I'm missing you so bad I wanna put you on the side of a milk carton

This is way more than I could bargain for
realizing that I closed a door
thinking it would remain open
hoping that for once I could handle things like these other niggas do
but you not these other chicks
and i took a long look in the mirror and realized im not them other niggas boo

I'm one of the few good guys still standin
I'm into sweet talkin, romancin & slow dancin
Sendin flowers just cuz its Thursday
writing you poetry to let you know I want you in the worst way

I know I hurt you and that was never in my plans
Havin you back in my life just didn't happen by chance
I call you my blessing, 

but I'm still practicing my steps in case this is our last dance

Craving for a hand touch or a forehead kiss
Wishing I could read your mind through the touch of your lips
My brain is so scattered
tryna figure things out
tryna show you that she never mattered
she was just a slip of the tongue
that took me down in more ways than one
and even while she was having her fun

i was thinking of you

thinking of how what I was doing was wrong
thinking of how with you is where I shoulda been all along
watching you walk away was the hardest thing I've ever dealt with
the look in your eyes as the tears flowed
my heart slowed
i felt like my heart was walking away
praying to God before I knocked out that when I woke up things would be okay
but you were gone 
and now you're back and so scared to give me your heart
the fact that you can't trust me tears me apart

i feel like a murderer

i feel like I made you afraid to trust
and she made you think that every chick that says "its love" means "its lust"
but for me its love
you got this hold on my heart
and i shoulda known from the start
that this thing called "us"
would get me addicted quick to where I can't get enough

YOU are the epitome of what a woman is
YOU are the truth
YOU are my sanity, my clarity
YOU are the Claire to my Cliff
YOU are that feeling when the bassline to my favorite song hits
YOU are the reason I smile, the reason I look forward to sending a good morning text
YOU are the woman of my dreams
YOU make me want to be called Charlene



but YOU are M.I.A.




- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

.traffic.

I think that its time we make love
Im not talking your generic brand stuff
Im talking that electric mind blowing i can still feel you fucking me when i think about it shit
That when i close my eyes and think of you i still taste u on my lips

See...

You're not just an ordinary girl to me
I wanna do things to show u you mean the world to me
Touch you in ways to leave you in a daze

For days

Go so deep you grippin sheets
Coming so hard, hours later u still feeling weak

I want to feel your warmth wrapped around me
Listen to your moans turn into screams
When its over you'll feel like a brand new being

I promise to treat your body like i own it
Love it right all night, and even touch it in the mornin (mo-nin)
I aim to please and i wont stop until your satisfied
I want to stay on your mind
Spend nights dreamin bout my head between your thighs

Mumblin in your sleep bout how that pussy is mine




Don't u think its time?







- Yungin. ((.f.l.h))

.strangers.

From lovers to friends to strangers again
Trying to figure out where we went wrong and when

Feeling drained from the fightin
In so much pain I feel like part of me is dyin
Realizin this is why i stopped tryin

See...

Tryna get u to give a fuck is like tryna get a monk to bust a nut
Wont happen

And whether im rappin or workin an 8-5
Nothing i do is good enough to keep this alive

I been livin this lie...

Telling myself that u love me
But when u love someone all "I's" turn to "we"
But unfortunately ur so full of yourself that u can't see

U tell me meet u halfway
Yet u cant get along with me for half a day
U the type of bitch that dont think its worth it if its perfect
U gotta fuck some shit up because if it dont hurt, it makes u nervous

U into ppl that make u feel worthless...


U give them love like they worth shit...


Same niggas that put u in bad situations are the same ones u have the most patience for

But the one thats tryna motivate so u can elevate is the same nigga u didn't appreciate out the door

You love me yet u call me "bitch" like i was born with that name
Change ya mind about your feelings like this shit is a game
Hopes up then knocked down
The hole in my soul is like a hole in a sinking boat and im tryin not to drown
Screaming loud for help but u ignore the sound

How does it feel?

Does it feel good to watch this die?

Does it make u smile to see & hear me cry?

You're the person I love, but the one I despise
And No matter how hard I try...

I cant be your friend.

And i refuse to be your lover




So lets be strangers again.





- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

.blinded.

She still lookin for the fame and the lights
And well...

Im just another nigga tryna see her tonight
And as easy as it could be
To turn around and be the flashy nigga that she wanna see
That shit just aint me

Im cliff huxtable wit a rap career
Tryna have a wife and kids and take em wit me when im tourin for half the year
I dont need her tryna be the next up on love and hip hop
I just need her be content with sittin passenger and enjoying this life that I bought
This life that we made

Goin wit me thru the rain holdin hands as we pray
And won't jump ship when shit starts to fade
Cuz she knows i was never a nigga that was lookin for fame.

- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

.royal palace.

If she got a key to my crib then she is Queen!

which means i rub her feet when she walk in
she rub my dreads and my back while we do some talkin
It means a full home cooked meal by her & a clean house by me.

It means no arguments before bed and if we do before our heads hit the pillow, eye to eye we will see.

She will understand that negative energy in the bed room brings negative thoughts in your sleep
and she will understand her Qing (King) has so many things on her plate

that at the end of the day all I need is a smiling face.

She will understand that this is more than just a key
it is accepting the responsibility of being attached to me
it is saying that she accepts my whole being
and she is willing to wait for the time she will receive that ring...
But if u don't accept that...

then u don't get a thing

- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

.scales.

2 years ago i fell for this libra chick
I was on a break from what i thought was a perfect relationship
Until she showed me what perfection is
Lookin at her i could see my reflection... 

Shit

She spoke my language & started becoming more than someone i just wanted to hang wit

My lady took that trip to NY & i could barely tell her bye
Face in my phone and she knew why
She reminded me that i was never supposed to be "that guy"
And I reminded her that if she woulda kept her kitchen closed instead of feeding the world
Maybe she wouldnt have to worry about another girl

So she left...

An as much as i wanted to feel bad i couldn't make myself
I could spend time with no interruptions
Sneakin out wit each other cuz gettin caught meant somebody was sayin somethin
This infatuation started turning into lowkey love
Picking me up every night just cuz
No sex involved but i remember her kisses like they just left my lips
Tryna explain to the world that to me... 
She was more than a lil dip

She became my inspiration & the reason I smiled
Several days she made waking up worth  my while

Then we faded


Who was I to think we coulda made it?
My girl came home & she went back to that other rapper
They kept askin if we fucked not understanding it wasn't her body I was after
Now years later after the book closed

I see her...

And honestly?
Im tryna write another chapter.



- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

.dreams&&nightmares.

She say "Cru... One day u gon get lonely...
One day u gon look up and say 'I need somebody to hold me'"

I laughed at it like a bad joke
I can't lie... 

I used to have madd hope

But the older i get the less i believe any words spoke
Men lie, women lie
We love hard then get forced to say goodbye
Its a cycle of suicide
We kill ourselves every time
Believing that 

"its gonna be different this time around"

Gettin our hopes up just to be let down
Giving mind, body, soul & control to someone else
Along the way losing part of yourself

Changing the "i's" to "we's"...

Making it about "us" instead of "me"...

They say love is blind and honestly I cant see
The point of falling in love just to watch the cycle repeat
Its like reliving the moment you die
Having your heart ripped out with a different killer every time
As much as I would like to try 

i can't grasp the concept of failing again

- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

.wrong turn II.

Im too fly to be wakin up to bullshit
U said u was mine but grabbed the gun and u pulled it
Nail in the coffin u lucky i dun changed
Or i'd call homie wit the range bury u both it aint a thang

Sleepovers? 

Wit that nigga?

I guess u felt like i'd say nothin be coo wit ya
Betrayal a bitch idk how i let you in to do it again
I guess i was busy tryna get away from Jen
Forgive me for my sins i guess if i lie u lie too
But i'd never pick her up and make her come for the ride too




- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

.wrong turn.

She was the best i ever had
The worst i never had
She was Mine
but she was hers
Thats why letting go was the worst
Loved her like she was my first
Hated her like an enemy
She made me smile
She made me violent
She talked her way in and out of my bed
All while playing with my head
When Our tongues touched we felt each others souls
Every time my hands around her neck with a tight hold

Cuz she knows this is wrong

I know it too...



but i cant move on.





- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

.curiosity.

Still so curious to find out how u taste
And see how wet you get once i get between your waist
I want u all over my face like i been deep sea diving
Soaked from bending you over and letting my tongue slide in
Fingers wanting to feel how wet it is as i go inside
Itching to feel you get tight around them while u scream that its mine

Im tryna blow ya mind

Make your body my playground
Have u making all types of sounds
2 fingers deep you making marks in my back
I know you've never had it like this 
but lay back

relax

Let me show you how your body should be done
I can catch it all when you start to cum

Dont run
This is a marathon
YOU take it easy
Dont worry bout a thing...


Pleasing u is how u please me





- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

.my generation.

Im from a generation of non believers
Faithless creatures that easily let good things slip thru their fingers
Patience wasn't something we learned
Neither was working hard 
so we could feel like nothing was given, it was all earned

We would rather return to things we're used to
Instead of stepping out on faith and enjoying something brand new
If only we could understand that anything easy is a set up to fail
Sunshine ain't always here...

It gets dark

Sometimes it rains... 
Some times it hails
But even thru the hell we refuse to pray
Its easier to say "fuck it its broke" and throw it away
The only time we communicate are when things are okay
When the storms come we'd rather leave our partner in the rain
Shame how we say we love someone and turn our backs when they need us the most
Not understanding relationships aint all "kick, push, coast"
Even the best of them fall short somedays
But we'll pass by them unphased
No hand reached out to help our partner up
Just walk on by like we never gave a fuck...


But this is what my generation says is love



- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

.exploration.

I can imagine a space and time that has jz u and me
Close ur eyes take my hands and we'll go & see

See...

It appears that you've sparked my interest
And at this point im willing to invest my time
Show that you're worth more than being called a dime
Im tryna show u real love makin
Touch u in places until ya legs start shakin
Don't call it sex...

Consider it exploration

No map for guidance
I'll find my way... Just be patient

Just the thought of how your lips feel make me wanna taste
Kiss between your waist until youre dripping down my face
Youre worth the wait
So i dont mind the anticipation
Patience while we pacin
Taking it slow because u make me feel so amazing
Tryna hold on as long as I can
Understand...

I wanna make u my biggest fan

And put a smile on your face that no one could take...
But first u gotta take my hand.



- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

.mindgames.

The sound of your voice turns me on
To the point you got me imagining how u moan
Got me thinking of ways i could have you

See...

Im a good guy...

But im bad too

No questions asked boo...

I can give you what you missin
Turn ya body out just by kissin

No braggin...
Just truth

Im talkin goin so deep im breathing for you
Give you that pusher love until you feenin for Cru
Make you sweat it out
Scream as loud as you want baby...

Let it out

Im wanna explore you
No maps.
I can find my own way
Take my time like im tryna get overtime pay
Get you wet and take that dive
You probably taste so good
You'd make a nigga wanna take that drive

Let your body be my feast...

Eat you alive then put you to sleep
Make you dream about what jz happened between these sheets
I talk a good game...

But you could always just see



- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))