a lot of people dont understand that i dream in color... forreal... i have vivid dreams... touch, taste, smell, hear, & see everything. so last night i had a dream... it was about every girl i had been with.
so... it started off with me waking up in my bed... sun all shiny and shit... smellin breakfast... and for some reason "International Playaz Anthem" is playin. so the beat drops... i hop outta bed and brush my teeth and walk in my kitchen to c who is cookin in my damn crib! So i walk in and it's my last girlfriend crystal... i kiss her and give her a hug and she switches up on me in to (muthafuckfuckme!)gemini... so im like wat da hell im trippin! so im talkin to her and she switches up into my first girlfriend britney... so im like i gotta go...
every thing goes black and fades back in... its night time and im on top of some girl. i look up and its (for disclosure purposes) heather so im like okay coo... lets keep it here. then she switches into stellz, who switches into jackie, who switches into rachael? (WAT DA HELL IS GOIN ON RIGHT?!) so this is gettin un-be-fuckin'-lievable. i gotta be trippin. so the whole scene switches to the bedroom with the blacklight... so im layin in the bed with corey(?) who scared the SHIT out of me... i knew it was a dream then. so im holdin her and it juss starts goin thru every single girl... and then she disappeared. and it was just me...
and these words came to me...
if i told u all i feel and everything i see
you would walk away from me in disbelief
i've felt pain and seen angels who have torn me apart
thought they were heaven sent but it seemed they didn't have a heart
made love to the sexiest women i've ever seen
even had a brief stint with a chick in a few magazines
but she messed up wat i had wit this girl i been after
2 years runnin and i still cant catch her
seems wat i lack is definition in the situation
but while laid up in the hospital God showed me how to be patient
so im waitin for the next chance to be found
cuz u never kno how everything could turn around
sometimes i wanna shake the nice guy image in me
imagine me not givin a fuck... thats just not in me
but i wont remain the one that they call when the need the pluck jones
i get tired of bein used and i'd honestly rather be alone
cuz i can't take the lies, the crying, and the games
its like they get with me and still think they with these lames
so bullshit me not save your stories for someone else
take me or leave me cuz i can be by myself.
.welcome to my reality.welcome to my heartbreak.
- Yungin ((f.l.h))
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