Monday, October 29, 2012

.cokehead.


I wanna be so engulfed in passion 
that afterwards i look like a slave from your back scratchin

Thanks to my neck grabbin...


Im tryna fuck you so deep i get to kidney stabbin


Oh my bad


Im kinda blunt
But honestly i keep dreamin & now im feenin cuz you're the one i want

From that long brown hair
To them lips between ya hips...
Im tryna take in every inch of you with my finger tips


Im starting to believe i may be infatuated with you


If only you knew


But i think u might have a clue


See i pray for them 4am phone calls
So u can walk thru my front door

&& I can get inside ya walls

This here is more than just sex with my ex
I feel like a recovering coke addict that just did several lines of some of the best...

Thinkin about it got me stressed

The baddest i've ever had...


Shaking just thinking of the curve of your body when i fuck you from the back

Sorry my language so bad


But every time i fuck you i fuck you like its mine
Til u sittin at ya desk at work tryna fuck me in ya mind


5 years and u still got me perfectly blind...



I dun got so lost in thoughts of you i dun lost my lines


Fuck.


I guess ending it here will be fine.





- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

Monday, October 22, 2012

.textsvoicemails.and.talkingwalls.


she say dat im the realest nigga dat she ever met
she say dat im the one nigga dat she won't forget 
she say dat im the reason that she haven't been sleepin
cuz im poppin up talkin to her while she dreamin

she say im the one
she say im the one
she say im that nigga
then she say that she done
she say im the one
she say im the one

she say that she love me down to the bottom of her soul
she say once i fucked her she lost all her control
she say that she shoulda been over me but somethin won't let her leave
she say she shoulda listened bout havin her heart on her sleeve
yeah
i know she tired of battlin for a piece of me
and im too busy tryna see what me and another "she" could be
i wanna take what's in front of me but i don't wanna settle
so i roll past, hittin gas, pedal to the metal
give her that tin man, no feelings unless we fuckin
and even though it feel like somethin, i still treat it like nothin
so when she get to callin & textin and i don't answer it
she wonderin if im between the legs of another bitch
she say im the prototype
she say im the one she like
she say im the reason 
that she thinkin bout turnin dyke
she say im her love
she say im her friend
she say that she never wanna see me again


she say dat im the realest nigga dat she ever met
she say dat im the one nigga dat she won't forget 
she say dat im the reason that she haven't been sleepin
cuz im poppin up talkin to her while she dreamin

she say im the one
she say im the one
she say im that nigga
then she say that she done
she say im the one
she say im the one

she say that she hate me wanna fight me when she see me
she say that she diggin me and she can't wait to meet me
she say that she need me but she don't like the feeling
she say she wanna fuck but her heart needs healing
she say we shouldn't be doin this then kisses me on my neck
she screamin my name while her girl hittin her on the text
and i know im wrong 
but honestly i been watchin shawty for too long
don't care which of these niggas that she dun been wit in the past
to be real that nigga's lame mama i'm nothin like the last
i've showed you that before, you walked out the door
she say that she love you, but you jz ain't for sure
she say that im bad
she say we'd be wrong
she say say that she scared that she'll be just another love song
I say i got a message 
Miss OVO dis line for you
stop worryin bout the world and lets have a talk 'bout you & Cru


she say dat im the realest nigga dat she ever met
she say dat im the one nigga dat she won't forget 
she say dat im the reason that she haven't been sleepin
cuz im poppin up talkin to her while she dreamin

she say im the one
she say im the one
she say im that nigga
then she say that she done
she say im the one
she say im the one



...they say im the one









in a world of unmentioned names & blurred faces, you still catch a line to define you. i always said i could spot you in a crowd.




she say, she say...





they say, they say...







- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.)))

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

.confessions.


I've loved her since i met her 5 years ago. I hadn't quite figured out what kept us apart until recently. Her words "I can't get caught up with you, Charlene," have been echoing in my mind since she said it. I just feel like... maybe if she took the fear out of her mind, things could work. I mean... i'm the "run to" between every relationship. 3 LONG years i waited for her to leave the last one. 3 years of being away from her made my reintroduction to her body the most incredible feeling i've felt in... well... 3 years. Somehow within all of this i managed to lose my mind while my tongue was inside her. Thoughts of her plague me daily and i can't help but think "stop the bullshit Crusay." See her fear of me has created my fear of her. Whats the point of getting involved with someone that has you playing the "in between" position? She's just gonna leave again. Something says i need to leave that alone cuz its gonna be another heartbreak.

I fell for her before i'd even been face to face with her in person. *beatbox* computer love. lol call it what you want. whatever it was... it just happened at a bad time. i kept going back to someone that had abused me previously, and she was just too busy for me. Crazy thing is... she likes to be spoiled. I can't spoil you if you don't have the time right? we did the back & forth thing... she even cheated on her gf for me. then here i was couldn't leave mine alone for her. now im single and she's happy and im just the nigga she calls when her chick ain't puttin in enough time. not to mention she's abt 4 months in this relationship and she's already moving out of state with her. 

good old fashioned life.

she keeps appearing in my dreams. begging me back, apologizing, promising that she's changed and its fucking killing me. im so weak when it comes down to her, but the things she's done in the past are unforgivable. 

she loves me to the bottom of her soul, but my last relationship hurt her more than it hurt me. i guess i gave her some sense of false hope that we could be something again. a nigga couldn't do it though. she'd just be all of the bitching, complaining, ordering around that the last one was. i mean she's supportive as shit, she just gets on my fucking nerves. That's why we didn't stay together. I don't know why females don't realize you can't force someone to be with you... it will only force them away

I don't understand why she thought that we could be back together. I mean... she recently had a kid and lied about how she had it. I wonder if she forgot she left my black ass standin on crutches in the hospital 3 years ago? 

O_o

hi bitch, bye bitch. and in case you didn't get it... lemme text it to ya bitch!

she deserves better than what she's been getting. we had our brief time together & i wish it wouldn't have turned out how it did. she's just so fucking sneaky. lowkey tho, i think she thought i was tryna get some ass or get back at her ex. shit... we jz hit it off from when i first walked outside & saw her coming up the steps. me & her coulda did some things to the world. we coulda been somethin really big. honestly tho... if that chance EVER presents itself again, idc about wat whoever got to say... im goin for it. she so busy worried about what the world would say... sometimes u jz gotta say fuck the world and follow your heart.

she's not willing to take her time with me. i hurt her every day because i refuse to commit. she got too many things in her life that i wouldn't agree with as her girlfriend. so... i keep my ass in the grey zone.

she's just a friend... and if i could, i would. GOD.... would i! We play... but sometimes my jokes ain't all jokes. If somethin were to happen... i can't say that i'd stop it.




these are my....




- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))