.chasing.

I finally figured out what I'm missing...

I ain't made love to a woman in years...

And this ain't poetry by the way... just some real talk.


Last woman I made love to turned my world upside down. She was so... careful. Now I'm a stud but I'm still a chick. I enjoy the sensuality of sex. The... soft touches, soft kisses, the exploration, the intamacy, the... appreciation.

See.. making love is about taking your time but its also about the connection you have with the person. U know that one person u have that PASSION for? That one moment when u go to kiss them and that small gasp for air wit the hesitation happens... yeah... THAT GIRL. Lol... no seriously. The connection is everything, and she and I had THAT connection.

And thats what I been chasing...

That feeling...

Idk it makes me feel like I'm human. It makes me feel good that someone is passionate about me for once. Shit man... that one there made a g feel like a woman for real! She made love to my mind, body and soul.

On the cool, its kinda scary to think that I may never have that feeling again. Im so cold these days and women aren't into making love. They're into fuckin. lol i blame rap music. Think about the 70's yo...SOUL music! the Isley's, Marvin, Earth Wind and Fire... they just talked about love and stayin together. Now all we talk about is fuckin, drugs, and plexin. Thats why I sip my Henny and turn on my Al Green Pandora.


U n-words ain't got no soul is basically what I'm sayin.



Generation full of lost souls.




Where was I going with this again?







- Yung. ((.f.l.h.))

.the way my gemini is set up.

The Bible says when u find a wife you find a good thing

and thats all im lookin for

but somehow I'm torn

torn between the two lives that I live

actin like i don't have this big ol heart to give

tryna decide between Claire and Malyah

Gettin wit the strippers and know I don't wanna wife ha

but why not?

she hustle the same industry as me

she understand when I gotta promote in these streets,

talk to these hoes and smile in they face

& she know at the end of the day she can't be replaced

but I can't deal with the lies of the lifestyle

bitches don't care if you go the extra mile

cuz some other nigga is her sponsor anyway

he walk in the club throwin racks on the stage

she rubbin on him tellin him things she tell me

...hell naw g

u can miss me wit the bullshit

last bitch that pulled it almost caught a full clip

the smile of a child will change ya heart...

im into playin it smart

i like them girls that view marriage as a business

"Miss Independent" 

but she knows her place when it comes to us

we may have our arguments about these hoes tryna fuck

but when I kiss her she knows the truth

she knows the difference between Charlene and that "Yung Nigga" Yung Cru

understander of my American Dream

that Huxtable livin

yeah that was a TV show, but my dad was missin

Cliff was the perfect man with the perfect wife

and that's all I'm tryna have in my life.

...these strippers tho....

- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

.m.i.a.

since u been away
love's been m.i.a

and I'm missing you so bad I wanna put you on the side of a milk carton

This is way more than I could bargain for
realizing that I closed a door
thinking it would remain open
hoping that for once I could handle things like these other niggas do
but you not these other chicks
and i took a long look in the mirror and realized im not them other niggas boo

I'm one of the few good guys still standin
I'm into sweet talkin, romancin & slow dancin
Sendin flowers just cuz its Thursday
writing you poetry to let you know I want you in the worst way

I know I hurt you and that was never in my plans
Havin you back in my life just didn't happen by chance
I call you my blessing, 

but I'm still practicing my steps in case this is our last dance

Craving for a hand touch or a forehead kiss
Wishing I could read your mind through the touch of your lips
My brain is so scattered
tryna figure things out
tryna show you that she never mattered
she was just a slip of the tongue
that took me down in more ways than one
and even while she was having her fun

i was thinking of you

thinking of how what I was doing was wrong
thinking of how with you is where I shoulda been all along
watching you walk away was the hardest thing I've ever dealt with
the look in your eyes as the tears flowed
my heart slowed
i felt like my heart was walking away
praying to God before I knocked out that when I woke up things would be okay
but you were gone 
and now you're back and so scared to give me your heart
the fact that you can't trust me tears me apart

i feel like a murderer

i feel like I made you afraid to trust
and she made you think that every chick that says "its love" means "its lust"
but for me its love
you got this hold on my heart
and i shoulda known from the start
that this thing called "us"
would get me addicted quick to where I can't get enough

YOU are the epitome of what a woman is
YOU are the truth
YOU are my sanity, my clarity
YOU are the Claire to my Cliff
YOU are that feeling when the bassline to my favorite song hits
YOU are the reason I smile, the reason I look forward to sending a good morning text
YOU are the woman of my dreams
YOU make me want to be called Charlene



but YOU are M.I.A.




- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

.traffic.

I think that its time we make love
Im not talking your generic brand stuff
Im talking that electric mind blowing i can still feel you fucking me when i think about it shit
That when i close my eyes and think of you i still taste u on my lips

See...

You're not just an ordinary girl to me
I wanna do things to show u you mean the world to me
Touch you in ways to leave you in a daze

For days

Go so deep you grippin sheets
Coming so hard, hours later u still feeling weak

I want to feel your warmth wrapped around me
Listen to your moans turn into screams
When its over you'll feel like a brand new being

I promise to treat your body like i own it
Love it right all night, and even touch it in the mornin (mo-nin)
I aim to please and i wont stop until your satisfied
I want to stay on your mind
Spend nights dreamin bout my head between your thighs

Mumblin in your sleep bout how that pussy is mine




Don't u think its time?







- Yungin. ((.f.l.h))

.strangers.

From lovers to friends to strangers again
Trying to figure out where we went wrong and when

Feeling drained from the fightin
In so much pain I feel like part of me is dyin
Realizin this is why i stopped tryin

See...

Tryna get u to give a fuck is like tryna get a monk to bust a nut
Wont happen

And whether im rappin or workin an 8-5
Nothing i do is good enough to keep this alive

I been livin this lie...

Telling myself that u love me
But when u love someone all "I's" turn to "we"
But unfortunately ur so full of yourself that u can't see

U tell me meet u halfway
Yet u cant get along with me for half a day
U the type of bitch that dont think its worth it if its perfect
U gotta fuck some shit up because if it dont hurt, it makes u nervous

U into ppl that make u feel worthless...


U give them love like they worth shit...


Same niggas that put u in bad situations are the same ones u have the most patience for

But the one thats tryna motivate so u can elevate is the same nigga u didn't appreciate out the door

You love me yet u call me "bitch" like i was born with that name
Change ya mind about your feelings like this shit is a game
Hopes up then knocked down
The hole in my soul is like a hole in a sinking boat and im tryin not to drown
Screaming loud for help but u ignore the sound

How does it feel?

Does it feel good to watch this die?

Does it make u smile to see & hear me cry?

You're the person I love, but the one I despise
And No matter how hard I try...

I cant be your friend.

And i refuse to be your lover




So lets be strangers again.





- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

.blinded.

She still lookin for the fame and the lights
And well...

Im just another nigga tryna see her tonight
And as easy as it could be
To turn around and be the flashy nigga that she wanna see
That shit just aint me

Im cliff huxtable wit a rap career
Tryna have a wife and kids and take em wit me when im tourin for half the year
I dont need her tryna be the next up on love and hip hop
I just need her be content with sittin passenger and enjoying this life that I bought
This life that we made

Goin wit me thru the rain holdin hands as we pray
And won't jump ship when shit starts to fade
Cuz she knows i was never a nigga that was lookin for fame.

- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

.royal palace.

If she got a key to my crib then she is Queen!

which means i rub her feet when she walk in
she rub my dreads and my back while we do some talkin
It means a full home cooked meal by her & a clean house by me.

It means no arguments before bed and if we do before our heads hit the pillow, eye to eye we will see.

She will understand that negative energy in the bed room brings negative thoughts in your sleep
and she will understand her Qing (King) has so many things on her plate

that at the end of the day all I need is a smiling face.

She will understand that this is more than just a key
it is accepting the responsibility of being attached to me
it is saying that she accepts my whole being
and she is willing to wait for the time she will receive that ring...
But if u don't accept that...

then u don't get a thing

- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))