.make out session.

[.no poetry.all thought.]

come here baby, let me show you something.

i wanna feel your lips touch mine.

i wanna feel that tingle go down my spine that makes me so dizzy it feels like you're fucking my mind.

make me crave your lips even more every time we stop touching.

i want to feel like i can't get enough of you until i grab the back of ur head to pull you in closer...

closer...

breathe me baby.

share my air as we hesitate to touch again.

lose control as the tip of my tongue traces your lips

while your body goes on this brief rollercoaster ride hold on to my hips

pull me in closer the wetter that it gets

make me lose control

make me bite your lip to keep from moaning

scratch the back of my neck and have me zoning

make me so far gone that i can feel you inside of me...

even though can i see both of your hands

damn.

- Yungin. ((f.l.h))

.curiosity killed the cat.

who are you? beyond the twitter, facebook, and occasional downelink updates...

who are you?

i've always had this secret curious infatuation with you. i don't know why... you intrigue me. you say the things i think... u know... all the deep shxt.

and i just stare... i don't say anything. i figure, the quieter i am, the less you'll notice me.

but yet i randomly get acknowleged by you.

i wanna know what you think of me. seriously. for some reason, your opinion matters more than people i know.

thats funny.

sooo... we've got: intellectual, intriguing, you're smart & JESUS are you beautiful.

s t u n n i n g

if you wanna get technical.

i wonder what ur lips taste like

(oh like yall didn't know that was coming... c'mon son! im a kisser... what do u expect?!)

if i EVER had the opportunity... i don't even want ur body (wouldn't turn it down if it was offered) i just want to kiss you. i get this feeling you would have my head spinning.

maybe i would make urs spin too...

even i've said "it all starts with a hug" && that's been done.

im curious to see if this jumps off...

oh Crusay.

- Yungin. ((f.l.h))

.all i see is.

a friend asked me what do i want more than success

i want to see the girl of my dreams in a white dress

walkin down the aisle her parents givin her away 2 me

but in reality this dream just seems so far away to me

for right now i'll settle for the one

that is all about summer nights & tryna have fun

ridin down 2 galveston shawty puffin a blunt

sittin watchin the stars until we see the sun

simple but complex to girls who obsess over me

they over think it then its hard to get over me

they write poetry that mirrors my mindframe

every chick i meet thinks im in to mind games

nah... i got a way wit words

this young gemini is better than what you've heard

lookin for someone that understands that i've been hurt

but can brighten up my sky like the 4th -

fireworks....

- Yungin. ((f.l.h))

.back to rehab.

i wish i knew...

i wish u knew...

how torn i am right now. after the bullshit we went through, why the fxck fxck do i want to talk to you? im supposed to hate you.

or thats whats expected of me.

i get it. i completely understand what happened was fxcked up. but you still get to me.

you still text me out of the blue and i smile like i just won some money, we hug and i still get those butterflies...

and why do you look at me like that?

you know...

that look that you give me... idk how to describe it. its like you're searching my face for something... like an answer... or like you're wanting to say something. stupid cru just looks off smiling when i really jz wanna be like 'damn i miss being in your presence everyday.'

i bet u i wont say it.

im sittin here like... aight we supposed 2 kick it. keep it simple and watnot. i guess start over but i do NOT wanna get sucked in by you again! SHxT! Are you aware of how addictive ur lips are? i thought abt kissing you earlier today. it was always that "we should really go pray before i get you" look afterwards. that feeling... Jesus...

*taps pipe* there goes that ANGELdust again.

Fxck you i kicked my habit...

its just that lingering high that im still feeling thats really getting to me. im thinking maybe if i could take one more hit of you... i could decide.

Unfortunately, i already know how this story would end...

my dumbass gon try anyway.

hopefully somebody rewrote the script.

boy i tell ya...

- Yungin. ((f.l.h))

.i swear u wont forget me.

walk in my room and close my door

ive got something i know ur body's been waitin for

take it all off im tryna see u butt naked

keep them fuckin heels on lemme see em in the air while u take it

handcuffed & blind folded standin in the middle of my room

ima touch & tease ur body I got some things i wanna do

im bout 2 show u im the truth not a big shit talker

it can speak for itself ma ima big shit walker

so let me lay you down so i can put it down

& when i put it down lil mama i shut it down

& when i shut it down we keep goin til the morning

got the neighbors mad cuz you screaming and moaning

baby lemme do the work, i told u im a pleaser

the way u throw it back at me girl u a keeper

i might be young but Yung is no beginner

i guarantee im somethin that your body's gonna remember.

- Yungin. ((f.l.h))

.i gotta vent.

i can feel your presence. i can still smell your shampoo on my pillow from where you laid months ago. i see you grabbing my hand like you used 2, me pulling you close and us hesitating for our lips to touch because the electricity between us is so strong we feel each other before they can even touch. i remember how u used to grab my hand as we passionately kissed & place it on ur body.

i hate the smell of black amethyst from bath and body works by the way. i hate when i wake up out of my sleep with that smell in my room as if you've been here. i hate that you haunt me. the 'shoulda coulda woulda's' float around in my head as i watch you love someone as strong as i possibly still love you.

do i still love you?

am i still in love?

why r u here?

why does it still hurt?

im sittin here at this computer rubbing my face trying to comprehend my brain.

why you?

i remember the way you used 2 bite me. i havent been interested in kissing since you. no one kisses like you. no one makes me smile like you. i knew you were the one when i stopped smoking green around you. even if you were on the phone i wouldn't smoke. maybe a cig... no weed. lol... what r u gonna smell it thru the phone?

i remember waking up to you naked. i always thought you had the sexiest back. im not much on lower back tats but i must say... das some sexy shit.

now don't get it twisted... i get it. ur happy right now & im happy for you. don't think im not. its great that she makes you happy & i would NEVER do anything to jeopardize your relationship. As Prince said 'I would never steal you from another'... I know if a nigga had tried 2 become me and you i woulda fucked dat nigga up. #nobullshit. im too much of a gentleman for that. i respect you too much for that...

i love you too much for that...

theres that question again.

do i or don't i? cuz i feel like there's a block on my heart... like its password protected & only you know the code. until that code is entered im just taking random times to visit November as if it were a park and im trying to retrace the steps so i can figure out where i lost my forever.

i could never stay mad at you. you would trip but i was always the 1st to roll over and put my arm around you. it was only because i hated for u to be pissed at me. it always made me feel worthless. how could i let something happen 2 the point where u were mad? why would i act how i did? even if it wasn't my fault... how did i let it get to this? i jz needed 2 know u weren't going anywhere

duh Cru...

best way 2 do that was be wit her.

smh.

now i know the meaning of a beautiful nightmare.

fuckin Crusay.

- Yungin. ((.f.l.h.))

wait... im not done. i just got 1 question...

why am i scouring the universe trying to find someone that is like you, knowing that you are the only one like you alive?