the first time i introduced u to my body, it was the greatest feeling in the world. It felt like i was on this permanant high... soaring above everyone else. Its been a while since i felt so invinceable. finally felt like i could breathe. After my last stint in rehab, you were just the drug i needed. You provided me with an escape route from this thing called life...
until i became tolerant to the high u were giving me... then u began to weaken, so i stepped back.
but u continued to call me. made it look like it was my fault that u weren't providing me with the high that u once were. you told me that you could be better, so i allowed you to become a part of me again.
i could feel myself suddenly losing control of my mind. every kiss pulled me deeper into u. every touch made you feel so real. i hung on to every word...
and just like that...
you became scarce... streets got dry... the hottest product in town was nowhere to be found...
now im breaking out in cold sweats, losing sleep, thinking of anything i could possibly do to score, until i start to see the light. i start realizing that maybe this addiction is dangerous. maybe this drug could be the death of me.
so no more.
until you begin to remind me how good you feel & what it's like to be high off of you.
no more?
still losing sleep, rocking back and forth like im half crazy feening for just one more hit...
just 1 more time to taste your lips, be in ur presence, feel u, touch you.
1 more time...
now im standing at the door of rehab confused. trying to figure out how to get off of this ANGELdust. knowing that what ur doing to my state of mind is damaging, but wanting to stay because you feel so good. trying to figure out how to turn this drug into a reason to smile again.
slowly trying to ween myself off of u
dropping tear after fucking tear because i cant leave you alone
i can only pray ur worth the rehab.
- Yungin ((.f.l.h.))
